A.R.T.

Yeah…Ron Palustre needs to teach me how to use this thing again.

“dude what’s a ‘perfect’ girl to you”…it strikes up good conversation. Hm. a ‘perfect’ girl to me. I’ll use the term ‘ideal’ rather than ‘perfect’. So my ideal projection of a female counterpart would be:

Personality:

1. Broad sense of humor. I like a girl that can make ME laugh..usually its me doing all the laugh making.

2. Down for whatever. When i say whatever i mean WHATEVER.

         1. Staying home with me just watching some movies

         2. Going out with her friends while im with mine. then meeting up later.   maybe.

         3. Going out with MY friends even if I’m not there. vice versa.

         4. ACTIVE. its not cute when girls try to look cute while playing sports or are  participating in sporty activities. i want to hear something along the lines of “hey, did you want to play flag football today?” or “Is it ok if i go with you biking today?” “Babe, lets do something! I feel like skating the pier or something!” (yes from a girl)

         5. Cooking dinner for each others families!

(I’m pretty sure you get the idea of what i mean by WHATEVER now.)

3. Her music taste has to be OPEN. I’m not too fond of girls that only listen to one genre. I think if they’re close minded about something as universal as music…they won’t try anything else new.(boring)

4. Can’t be afraid to try new things! or show new things! sometimes people lose sight of their ‘love’ not because someone changed, but because someone stayed the same. Adaptation is the success to anything. cant grow without change.

5. This sounds weird. but i like when a girl bugs you enough just BELOW the annoying point. (i.e. the whole “where you at? what’re you doing after? when are you free because i want to hang out=)”) type texts and messages…i like those.

6. Shows presence enough for me to realize shes there a lot but enough space to miss her. daily.

7. Knows when to act like a lady. Knows when to act like a baby. I know a few ladies that love being “babied” by their significant others. however, they want to be babied ALL THE TIME. gotta have that balance.

8. Independent! BUT! not afraid to put pride aside where it fits.

    Examples:

               1. Let me pay for dinner. or we can 60/40 it ^_^

               2. you’re not feeling well. Geeze, just let me bring you some soup and

                   MAYBE nurse you a little?

               3. You look tired…I’ll just drive…your car though.haha.

9. Ok this one’s far fetched but SH! its MY ideal lady. Brings me lunch or something while I’m at work. something cute like that. haha.

10. Good with children. I have a lot of younger family members. Win their hearts you win mine.

11. Not afraid to admit to her mistakes past and present.

Style:

Dresses to the occasion. if we’re just going to the mall, please don’t dress like you’re going to a cocktail party. Jeans/shorts, vans, v-neck…boom. done.

Steez/style: just have a style…thats it.

Vocabulary/accent:

Can have a deep conversation. I don’t care if a little bit of ghetto-ish type speech comes out of you but i prefer talking proper with each other for the most part. I don’t like girls who play dumb. its NOT cute.

so anyway. thats basically it. haha….good luck to me on finding this one.

to the people who wonder why I don’t pursue girls i tell you I’m interested in:

No girl is as “down” for me or as understanding as they think. Besides, most girls now a days wouldn’t treat me as well as i would treat them. TRUST. and i plain just don’t have confidence haha. 

EDITED:

Knows she’s going to become something great. Doesn’t have to be specific.

understands my weird obsession with Ninja Turtles, Batman, and a lot of old school not well known things. 

Concerned about health related issues. 

Who can be a Kid with me when the time calls for a kid’s heart to play. 

Massage’s are great as well. 

“I used to be afraid of change. “why cant it stay this way forever?..” Well if my life stayed that way..or if nothing changed. how would i better myself?..how would i improve on anything? Everytime something changed in my life big or small i’d feel incomplete..but i believe life is like a sculptor and clay..He/She strips away the unnecessary useless pieces and eventually forms a masterpiece. I’m slowly learning more and more about myself and life in general. And to be honest..i have everything i NEED. i have everything i need to sculpt my life into the masterpiece of my imagination. Notice..i say MY imagination not anyone else’s. Dont let people change the way you feel about things but for sure you should listen to they’re prospective. Knowledge cannot enter your mind if it is closed. “knowledge is power” …very true. in todays world it really is “not what you know but WHO you know”.
i guess this blog is kinda all over the place but i wanted to express my new found respect of just BEING ME.
You see i believe if you’re not being true to yourself..you’re not being true to anyone. everything starts with and ends with you. Now..this is me in a very BROAD sense:
very open, Music, spontaneousness, always there to help a friend, listener, making the best of the worst things, brightening up peoples day to brighten my own afterwards…
this is who i was for a year and a half:
stressed about future, worrying what people think of how i carry myself, not letting anyone in my head not seeing people for who they are but what they do. not telling people about how i felt. sacrificing being me so i can be me later..this is later.
dont get me wrong im mixed of both of these NOW..but i learned if you focus only on the future like i was taught and sacrifice everything now..you dont have a present..and without a present…there IS NO future. when i was growing up..i was always one to have have A LOT OF FUN and STILL get stuff done..but for that whole year and a half i had no fun…and didnt get much done…and i ask myself..why?..cuz its not ME. the best way to live life is in YOUR OWN STYLE..if you live life without style..how can you live a lifestyle? I believe “if you want what they got..do what they did.” this has a whole new meaning to me.. well to get what they have …werent they being themselves? i mean yeah you can change who you are if you FEEL its RIGHT. do the uncomforatble until its comfortable if you see the value in it. if you think about it…you can get the same job done of a lot of things in different ways. some more efficient than others but still..thats up to the person doing it. for instance…songs on a guitar..can be played on several different places on the guitar and still be in the same key.
how i felt before was useless. going nowhere or moving really slow..and straight up not significant.
how i feel now..important to a few people..happy. “more than useless”, and significantly enough to be happy. if i dont like something..i change it. if anyone needs someone to talk to …im right here. later.”

I miss getting into deep thought like this but hey.. a thought is just a thought without taking action..I have yet to take action that would give these thoughts JUSTICE. heh.

funny how my past self inspired my present self…any way here it is.

“yeah yeah yeah weird title huh? but seriously..do you not agree? lets give an explanation first. so ive learned to relate everything in my life to everything else. to try to gain every little piece of knowledge i can from whatever i can. Being wasteful is not my style anymore. so here i am going day to day just observing and learning from everything. the reason why i enjoy relating everything to everything is because it keeps my mind so open. imagine if you looked at a car and said “oh its just a car” but in fact it could be a birthplace of a childs life..or an end of someone else’s. it could be the very same car that takes you when you meet that ‘right girl/guy’ whatever you’re into. like i said i like to relate everything to everything learn from not only my own but from others mistakes. so ..check it out..
my friends and i were playing tetris on facebook for a ReALLy long time and i just got into deep thought and realized…
life is like tetris..at first it starts out slow…easy…and every little piece, you have more than enough time to really think it through where to place it. but as the game (life) goes on.. you notice “aww crap! i should have done this i should have done that!” but now its too late and before you know it the game picks up speed.. you dont have as much time as you did before to fit everything together. Even though sometimes the game(life) shows you what pieces are coming way in advance we tend not to worry about the future and just “wait for something to happen” Now, some pieces you get are the pieces you actually know where to put and you were hoping for it. Others, are completely unneccessary but you need to place it somewhere to continue on the game (life) but, a little further in the game(life) you start getting in the groove. As you’re getting in the groove placements of pieces (stress/priorities) become more natural to place. and one by one the lines disappear..sometimes one piece makes 4 lines dissappear. sometimes you place the piece too fast and it gets in the way of a lot of things..but if you dont give up on the rows..it slowly disappears..all rows start disappearing one by one..before you know it you win. so basically what i got out of tetris was..all stress is nothing but pieces trying to find its partner to dissappear but its up to me to find the piece that fits..and as long as i keep getting the pieces i dont want …i know the one i NEED is coming soon. I also learned to plan ahead life gives you a lot of signs and opportunities to help your future..who knows you might find your perfect ‘tetris’. but yeah…lifes like tetris aint it? “
 
life is grand. Thank you for the wonderful life i live. Only can go up from here  my rows are disappearing.
 
quote of the day “are you living a life…or is your life just a living?